A couple of weeks ago, I decided to change my major. After discovering of all the courses I was going to have to take, I realized I was not really interested in any of it. I obviously want to love what I am going to be learning about, so I changed it. This did not exactly settle well with my friends and family. I got a lot of “you are going to get no money with that major!” or “just stick with the other, it’ll be worth it.”
I felt pressured to go back to what I did not feel comfortable doing. Maybe I am just an indecisive teenager who doesn’t know what I want in life (by the way, this is very true).
What I DO know is that God has blessed me with certain strengths and abilities. By this point in my life, I know some of the things I am good at and what I am not good at. I certainly know what interests me and what can put me to sleep in a heartbeat. So the question is this: should I capitalize on what I know I can be good at, or should I put forth extra time and effort into something I know I will never be more than mediocre at in life.
Stress is my middle name. Although I KNOW God ultimately has a plan for my life, it is hard to trust this at times, especially when time feels so limited. Occasionally I sit back and think “I’m young, I’ve got time to figure this out!” (although my academic adviser likes to tell me differently), but I still worry and stress and rip my hair out over this stuff.
And then one night, as I was having one of my late-night Pinterest binges, I came across this:
“Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.” Philippians 4:6-7
Why do I sacrifice the time I am blessed with worrying about a future I am not promised? After reading this beautiful verse, I know that God will always lead me in the right direction. Actually, I’ve known this all along, I just pretend sometimes that I should be the driver of my own life.
My life is not in the hands of fate or luck or by random chance: God knows everything that has happened to me and is going to happen to me. As Philippians 4:6 says, all I need to do it pray and God will handle my life from there. It might not necessarily be what the world views as “successful” or “popular,” but He can use anyone for His glory in His own way.
I will wait for His good timing and I will follow where He tells me to go.
I rest assured in this.