I never know what is next. I can try my best to control what my next step will be - and the exact opposite seems to always take place. But the difference between how I would have dealt with this in the past, and how I deal with this now, is confidence.
When people ask how long it has been, I am burdened to say two years, because my body hollows at the mention of your name, the same way it did two years ago.
What I Experienced Through a Year of Grief
I am going to let you in on a pretty dirty part of my soul. This is something I have struggled with ever since I came to college and became a Christian. It's not pretty. It's profoundly embarrassing. I never truly recognized it as sin until recently, when a friend called me out on it…
Job was prepared to DIE trusting in the name of God. It is true that sometimes we cannot trust God with our whole heart until our circumstances lead us into painful places. This is when we learn to lean not on our own understanding. THIS is how we obtain spiritual endurance much like Job did.
Wild girl, you are going to be tempted to chase the stars. When you feel that longing, remember that there is nothing we need more desperately in this life than the One who launched those stars in that massive, endless sky.
Hip music. Concerts. All black. MacBooks. Densely highlighted bibles. Big churches. Blogs. Coffee shops. Enos. Perfect Instagram's. Bible apps. Cool shoes. Hebrew tattoos. Journals with pages and pages of calligraphy. If you took all of it away, would you still be in love with Christ?